This is significant: you are becoming your whole, beautiful self, the self you have always been at heart. Old systems and ways of thinking are dying (or are already dead) and are currently composting into the material you’ll need to be born into something new. It’s a process with which you might be uncomfortable–it’s sticky, melty, and gross. But it’s organic and alive, even in death. Keep track of where your thoughts are guiding you during this time, and let all extraneous cluttering thoughts and ideas be cut away. You don’t need them. Focus on your passions, and try your best to not let your addictions overwhelm your feelings. Use what magic you have to stay present and focused.