You must choose. Put aside whatever input you’ve been getting from outside sources, make your best choice for you right now, and go for it. You’ve earned the right to decide for yourself, and you have the inner resources to make it work. Not choosing for yourself only means that the decision will get made for you, and the potential for suck involved in that choice is tremendous–and the super-fun part of that is that when the choice gets made for you, you don’t get to blame the gods for “hating” you or messing with you or ruining your life. You have to take responsibility for that yourself. So trust me: decide for yourself. It’s so much easier, so much less messy, and you really can do it. You’ve got all the magic you need.